Can't Hold Back the Tears Today

Saturn is squashing my Joy Button

Saturn in Pisces is squatting on Jupiter in Pisces and I can’t hold back the tears. From my window a man stands on the sidewalk with his dog, Peaches, and all his worldly belongings. I brought him coffee. He is Raymond but everybody calls him Joker. Raymond has people. I asked if he did. He does.

This morning a tow truck took his house that was parked on a city street, a house trailer. This morning Raymond was not homeless, he was landless. The Police had every right to call it in. After all, there was pink slip glued to the back of the metal box he called home.

Pink slips make it okay. Is it right? Is it wrong? Is it written in pink?

My granddaughter needs money. I send it. She needs more. I don’t want to. I know her life. I can’t hold back the tears.

If I don’t get the T3 medication I will lose my life. My current doctor is an assistant, not a doctor. He wants me to go back to T4 hell. He says I disrespect him. I’m so angry, I can’t hold back the tears.

Crying is Yin and Yang. The Feminine expression of rage.

It is yang anger suppressed and leaking out slowly as Yin eye water. The rage builds in the throat, center of speaking the truth, and leaks out through the eyes, center of higher mind.

Life is hard sometimes. I’m going to the beach. The beach is a Yin place to cry.